bedlam updates

"The news is always terrible, it's supposed to be, no one wants to get out of bed in the morning and find out that nothing has changed. You want a good terror attack with your breakfast, something that makes life feel dramatic and important. If you want to heal a chronically bored life, get into the news, it's a literal train wreck. But sometimes gawking at the unending horror is not enough. You think, should I be joining in? Am I bad if I'm just drinking in the spectacle but not doing any terrorism myself? But then you think what if I just get shot in face like I always do? What if I do a terrorism and people are like, too far man, you've overdone it, you've lost me! What if people are like, why couldn't you just stay at home like a normal person, why do you have to always commit hundreds of murders? So here we are, you can either stay up to date with the news or you can be a terrorist, there is no middle ground. I feel like I am d

I'm pretty much an expert at starting a new video series, so this time I'm not even going to say anything. Sure, it's a new thing for me, where I make short videos that are scripted, or at least I'm reading words instead of pulling them out of my head as I speak, but you don't need to know any of that. Here's the script: I've been thinking about changing the direction of my compassion slightly so it bounces of me first before it collides with my loved ones then everyone and everything else. I was feeling anxious, probably about climate change, and I thought “I could use some good vibes right now. There's no point asking anyone else for help though, they're up shit creek too”. And I remembered that a wise man once said that it's good to be compassionate and you shouldn't forget to have compassion for yourself. And just like that I felt much better as I imagined coming compassion all over my own face and I visualised my own compass