bedlam updates

My latest twitter account has been nuked. No warning, no proper appeal process, it's just gone. Hey, I've got an idea! Maybe if people on twitter put some energy into free speech issues this wouldn't happen? Then again, the problem of folks getting caught up in bullshit so they can't focus on real problems is not the real problem. The real problem is twitter is an out of control money making machine. So is Facebook. The social media giants would be mad to walk away from all that money and if they did anything real about the online hatefest they'd be walking away from lots and lots of lovely money. So what we need is something like a carbon offset program for the social media giants. It's unfair to ask them to divest from Hate so we should instead pay them to store hate in trees, pump it deep into the earth's crust and even suck it into machines that will turn it into fuel to run our industries and public and private transportation. Yes, this is a good idea...

It's the 90s all over again. Remember Sensitive New Age Guys? Yeah, it was horrible and it did nothing to dismantle Patriarchy. In the 90s dudes got sucked into the SNAG shit and became simpering, smug little pricks. They didn't become better, they became useless. When people try to deal with real emergencies with bullshit that has no grounding in anything real, you just create more arseholes. Almost any hastily thrown together protest is far better than bullshit demands of normal people that they change who they are. But, telling follks to Be Better suits a lot of people who are neither action nor ideas oriented. Or about outcomes. It's one big performance. Unfortunately we're storytelling creatures who sometimes delusionally use story telling techniques to try to force people into a new story. It has never worked. Movements can't be driven by slogans and our real stories shouldn't be compressed into the solid cube of a hashtag. We *are* better than...

I started making funny (hopefully) rant vids in 2005 and huge idiots who were obviously extremely full of it were forever wanting to debate me. "Debate me Sir. Sir!" The pompousness, the transparent belief that they were intellectual giants, the stunningly dumb shit every single one said. Astonishing, total, pricks. I didn't realise this form of risk free cockishness would become a major disease sweeping the planet. We are up against millions of pissweak babies. LIKE ZOMBIES they show no sign of consciousness. They are the basest human at it's lowest ebb, it's all a game and an act and we need to snap these cunts out of it. And the only way that is happening is by massively outnumbering them in the streets.

My father treated me badly so I'd be ready for real life. I'd love to know who I'd be without the cult leader dad upbringing. He was raised by a psychotic mother, who was raised by pretty much an evil witch, which is why I'm a disturbed activist who thinks in terms of systems. Anyway, I'm gonna try get some therapy this year, not because I want to talk to a middle class dipshit who's never been slapped, but to bitch endlessly. I'm gonna bitch my arse off. When they tell me maybe I should try this or that I will bitch even harder. I will convince them I have real problems. All I want is someone to bitch to with extreme force. There is no solving the problem of me, there is only further complaining. I will become known in secret therapy circles as the guy who can whinge for 9 hours without repeating myself unless it's to power stancely reiterate a complaint. I will be the Henry Rollins of therapy. My therapist will pay to see me. They will be e...

We've been working on a short horror film over the last week, trying out fake blood recipes, shooting bits of test video, developing a script, building characters, working out the nuts and bolts and all because I watched the first two Hellraiser movies and decided I want in. Yep, I want to be involved in the process of screening tales of disturbed people doing bad things. So far what I've got is a story of identical twin brothers, which is brilliant because I can play both of them. A genius solution to the problem of not knowing how to do this yet and not wanting to expose anyone else to my learning process or to my no-budget approach to doing everything, which some might find confrontingly loser-adjacent. We're doing it all in this flat because there's going to be a lot of blood. All the blood is happening in the bathroom and kitchen area because red food dye is probably hard to get out of the walls and carpet of a rental property. We've been shooting video of ...