This Will Ruin Your Day
This is a purge. Don't read if you're feeling fragile.
So some people fight mental illness and some people seem to give up and blame everyone else and among those who fight, the fighting isn't consistent or heroic, it just is what it is. Knew a guy who had HIV and he wrote a song that pointed out talk of his being brave was a load of shit when the fact is nobody wants to die. "It's amazing that you haven't given up." It's amazing that you think that's an option.
Maybe some people are just more whipped than others. Maybe people who mythologise those who don't give up do so because their imaginations are so paper thin that fairy tales are all they can come up with.
People talk an incredible load of shit about anxiety and depression these days. Climate change? Robots taking our jobs? Asteroid Trump? And you feel anxious? Oh god why? I wonder if there's a reason, you inward looking stump of humanity.
Even though I've been through mental illness I have very little sympathy for people who have zero insight into their own condition. They have no curiosity about that, it's just something that's happening to them and the only question they have is "Why me?" No one is asking you to be a hero but have a look around you. The world is terrible. You are reacting to it. Even though you have apparently no ability to put two and two together so it's a wonder the outside world penetrates at all.
But I could be super wrong here. Maybe I'm being shithouse.
I think I get worn down by endless sob stories from people who can't be bothered to learn anything about their own situation. I feel like a lot of middle class people are quite specifically conditioned to not be survivors. I reckon I've tried too many times to help people who want a lot of help but don't want to make any changes to their of course fascinating selves.
Now we are in a weird world where mental cases will be the next fat people: we will be asked to tiptoe around their feelings and definitely never campaign for a health system that supports and rebuilds them, because that would be judging. That would be stigmatising, that would be behaving as if having a disease that looks exactly like being shithouse at life is actually an amazing gift.
So some people fight mental illness and some people seem to give up and blame everyone else and among those who fight, the fighting isn't consistent or heroic, it just is what it is. Knew a guy who had HIV and he wrote a song that pointed out talk of his being brave was a load of shit when the fact is nobody wants to die. "It's amazing that you haven't given up." It's amazing that you think that's an option.
Maybe some people are just more whipped than others. Maybe people who mythologise those who don't give up do so because their imaginations are so paper thin that fairy tales are all they can come up with.
People talk an incredible load of shit about anxiety and depression these days. Climate change? Robots taking our jobs? Asteroid Trump? And you feel anxious? Oh god why? I wonder if there's a reason, you inward looking stump of humanity.
Even though I've been through mental illness I have very little sympathy for people who have zero insight into their own condition. They have no curiosity about that, it's just something that's happening to them and the only question they have is "Why me?" No one is asking you to be a hero but have a look around you. The world is terrible. You are reacting to it. Even though you have apparently no ability to put two and two together so it's a wonder the outside world penetrates at all.
But I could be super wrong here. Maybe I'm being shithouse.
I think I get worn down by endless sob stories from people who can't be bothered to learn anything about their own situation. I feel like a lot of middle class people are quite specifically conditioned to not be survivors. I reckon I've tried too many times to help people who want a lot of help but don't want to make any changes to their of course fascinating selves.
Now we are in a weird world where mental cases will be the next fat people: we will be asked to tiptoe around their feelings and definitely never campaign for a health system that supports and rebuilds them, because that would be judging. That would be stigmatising, that would be behaving as if having a disease that looks exactly like being shithouse at life is actually an amazing gift.
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